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I am in an incredibly good mood this morning. I’m not sure of the reason but it could be something to do with the cooler weather. Everybody else is sleeping right now so the apartment is quiet. It’s only 22c at 8:55 am which many people may regard as hot but here in Lisbon in July, it is cool. The past few days have been uncomfortably hot and I’m now trying to decide whether to buy a portable airconditioner or leave it until next year.
Yesterday Rasmi sent me a fantastic video from Kathmandu. I could see Flocky welcoming Rekha home after being away for some months on a training course. It unsettled me and I just wanted to be back home in Kathmandu. I do love getting all those pictures and videos.
I’ve been sitting at my desk for far too long this morning and there is work to be done but I am in laziness mode and need to get motivated.
I have been reminiscing a lot this morning. I played some Chinese instrumental music and listened to a British radio station on my laptop, quietly in my room. I only have a small bedroom temporarily but I like it very much and I can see the estuary from here.
This morning I once more wondered if I am slightly autistic. I have been misunderstood so many times in my life and people mostly misunderstand autistic people. I hate being misunderstood but sometimes cannot break through an invisible barrier to make my thoughts clear and understandable. I hurt people very easily. I mean, I don’t mean to hurt them but I do. I am ridiculously frank about things and I try to make a big effort to be diplomatic but I still get comments about my frankness. I hate it when I upset people who I like but I still do it unintentionally. I get hurt very easily also and tend to lash out fiercely when somebody hurts or harms me. I have an autistic sister and she hurts everybody most of the time, especially people who care for her the most so I am very familiar with the habits and emotions of autistic people. I can recognize some of her traits in myself. I can and have been a highly successful business person and also in our latest venture which has gone up like a rocket. I have several very long term friends and I place huge value on those friendships. I have upset a few as well, always unintentionally. I don’t suppose I will ever truly understand myself.
Well I need to do some work. I’ve had quite a lazy morning even though there are many things waiting to be done. Sunday is the day when I try to get some relaxation but it rarely works. I have to clean the kitchen floor because it always gets messy. The picture above is my kitchen but it’s not as narrow as it looks in this picture. My camera was having an off day maybe.
Enjoy your weekend everybody.